Entries from December 2006
“They say that love is in the air… but never is it clear;
How To Pull It Close And Make It Stay!!”
Heavily inspired by Sheryl Crow n Sting!! a deadly combo…. I try n make sense of thoughts swirling around in my mind!!
How true… ifff Love is in the air.. then why do we have to work soooo hard to keep our love.. or our loved ones close by???
Why do we suffer so in Love?? Some say LOVE and SUFFERING go hand in hand.. Why??
Why are tears associated with the most beautiful emotion in the world?? Why aren’t we allowed to believe in FAIRY TALES?? Why do we have to have the REALITY BITES??
It brings back a few more line from Hoobastank’s The Reason;
“I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you”
Why do we need to change?? Can’t we find Love without changing?? Why wouldn’t someone love us for what we are?? Why do we need to change?
Maybe because to experience LOVE we need to know what it is to be without LOVE.. n for that we need to suffer for LOVE….
Maybe its just like to know light you have to know darkness….
Maybe like a friend once wrote…. “There is happiness in grief just as there can be pain in pleasure and hatred in love. ” n Pain in Love…..
Well one thing is clear… that the very concept of Love is elusive…. so many poets; philosophers; song writers have tried to catch it… but like a clever “butterfly” it flies away…
leaving us far behind to wonder….
Maybe its just not meant to be…. maybe Love’s not in the air… maybe its not supposed to stay with us.. maybe……
But this isn’t how its really meant to be…. its supposed to be easy…. then why do we wonder so?
Categories: Echoes from the past
don’t think sorry’s easily said
don’t try turning tables instead
you’ve taken lots of chances before
but i’m not gonna give anymore
don’t ask me
that’s how it goes
cause part of me knows what you’re thinkin’
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Categories: PICTURE POSTS
Hey Ashi!!!
Now that i have turned u down, I am getting all flustered. I mean it wud be a lie if i say that i didnt ant to go out with u. But its just that i dont trust ur reasons. I dont want to be a last minute change in plans. I dont wanna be a Plan B which u had to resort to wen ur initial plan 4 new yr failed.
I want to be appreciated for wat i am, Ashi.I am not Tv/Radio which u cud turn on n off according to ur wishes. i too have feelings damn it!!! I refuse to be ur plaything.
How I wish u had sincerely wanted to go out with me on new yr’s eve. It wud have been a wish come true.U spoke abt courtesy last nite wen i refused to recieve ur calls. Wen was ur courtesy wen i wrote to u wishing u a merry christmas?
I donno y u turn in to a hypocrite? Its all right for u to do it, but wen i do the same thing u give me a long lecture on courtesy/ politeness etc etc….
Damn I never wanted last nite to turn in to a slinging match but i donno with u i just cant keep my cool. With it its always a war. I donno y we both try to gain an upper hand wen we r together??!!!Y cant we be just “be”….i mean calm cool…like the other couples. Y do we need to fight n establish our supremacy over the other? Y cant we co exist peacefully???
I luv u n believe me i dont like fighting on evevry occasion. U donno wat the words”I luv u” can make me do. But one thing u have to admit Ashi, that the chemistry bet us is still sizzling. We always got on well n ended up having the best times of our lives.We hit it off so well. I have never hit it so well with any other guy b4. And i can bet that the way I hit it off with u no other woman/ gurl can. Take my word for it Ashi. If u had u wudnt have asked me out on new yrs eve. Ah I know u have the comeliest of gurls who r falling all over u. And i am suprised u chose me n not them 4 2morrow….
U may deny it…. But the truth is out there 4 all 2 see….no one hits it off so well as we do….. now the rest of the decision is on u. wat u wanna do in ur life….. How u chose to spend it n most importantly with whom…!!!!!
Categories: Echoes from the past
Ok.
Listen to this….
Ashi has asked me out on new year’s eve!!!!!
I am not lying….
Its incredible isnt it???!!!
But Alas I turned Him down!!! 
He called me thrice…
messaged me a dozen times……
I turned him down!!!!
Categories: Echoes from the past
Whoever said life teaches you a new lesson everyday of your life was right. I too have learnt few thing the past two years. I guess i can say that I am wiser now.
One thing that wasn’t known to me earlier has been driven home to the hilt.
Ani called me frm the airport this evening. Yes!!! After ages, I have stopped expecting his calls after the big fight we had.After the big fight nothing i did seemed right to him.Anyways it doesnt hurt now. But yes it did hurt me today wen i was expressing my concern abt the cold in Delhi. Yes i agree the winters in China r much harsh,but i was merely warning him abt the weather in Delhi. Was that wrong of me? Anyways wat i get to hear in return for my concern is that “Dont make conversations just for the sake of it.Speak if u important to say.”
Gosh wasnt this the same guy who used to call me up n let the silence do the talking. I remember how i used to scold him up for the habit of calling me up (ISD)n then keeping silent. Now the same guy asks me to speak only if i have anything imp / relevant to say. Asks me not to indulge in small talk.
Man time does fly swiftly!!!! Too swiftly in fact.
So I wud request all my readers to stop wasting their precious time reading my nonsensical posts. for i have nothing imp/ relevant to talk abt. I just ramble…..
Anyone interested in imp/ relevant matters pls check some other blog. This is my pvt diary. Not a blog!!!
It never was a Blog!!!!
Categories: cranky mutterings
” Once ,
I had ,
Strength , Trust , and ……….Will.
I stood High , Erect , Undaunted ………………
Now ,
The overbearing facade ,
Lies crumbled .
Weak , unsure , unwanted ……………….
Memories,
of past glory ,
scurry ,
along broken corridors……………
I sifted through the dust…………and got ,
Remains of a kiss ……………
Echoes of passion …………….
Murmurs of promises…………….
and a love lost…………………”
Categories: Echoes from the past
” I’m Through with Love , I’ll never fall again ………….”( Everyone says I love you ). This is my Motto for now. Call it sour grapes or whatever but it is time , I learnt. And to elaborate this point and to explain why ‘ the gates are not open and the walls are not broken ‘ .Here’s a Story :
………….Once upon a time there was a Girl . She lived in a House called Hope, which had a beautiful Garden , brimming with Blooms of Love , Happiness and Faith. Unfortunately the Girl had a Curse , She was doomed to be as Naive as a Newborn , irrespective of how Old she got .
Well , the pretty House and the Garden brought in many visitors, and the Girl welcomed them and opened the Gates of the Garden , the House , and her Heart with an Infantile Trust . But , one by one , the visitors plucked the Flowers , invaded the House , disrupted it and then wLeft ……treading on broken Dreams.
A sensible person would have learnt from this and would have been more careful in the Future , But not this Girl , as She was cursed . Time and again She let in visitors ( who promised to be nice and caring ) , and tried to forget the unfortunate Past and allowed a continued Invasion of her Space with Wide eyed Innocence . But Yet again , the visitors left , leaving behind the Wrecked Remains.
Now , the House , the Garden ……no longer bloom , they lie neglected amidst the broken and trodden Spirit of the Girl. The Gates remain closed and there are no more visitors. The Winter has set in and there is no possibility of Spring ………….as the Snow doesnt seem to melt and the Flowers dont want to Bloom , for they dont want any more visitors to come and Hurt the Girl , for She can not Judge the Good from the Bad , even for her own sake……………cursed as She is ……………
Categories: Echoes from the past
tu nahin to zindagi me aur kya rah jaayegaa durr tak tanahaeeyon ka silasilaa rah jaayegaa dard ke sari tahe aur sare gujare haadase sab dhuwan ho jaayenge, yek waakiyaa rah jaayegaa yunbhee hoga wo mujhe dil se bhooladegaa magar ye bhi hogakhud usi me ek khalaa rah jaayegaa daayare inkaar ke ikaraar kisaragoshiyaan ye agar toote kabhi to faasala rah jaayegaa
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Categories: Different Beat · Echoes from the past
Emptiness
Forced laughter,
veiled eyes that look beyond.
Strangled heart…
Sometimes empty
is better.
Categories: Echoes from the past
