Chalte Chalte (Pakeezah-Pure Heart)

if i had to select a song  that best expresses my love story, then it wud be….”chalte chalte” frm pakeezah.

There is something huanting abt the song.

Meena Kumari one of the most beautiful and finest actors of india, gave probably the best performance of her life.

Effect- Awesome!!!! 

Chalte chalte, chalte chalte

Yunhi koi mil gaya tha 

Sare raah chalte chalte 

Vahin thamke reh gayi hai 

Meri raat dhalte dhalte 

Jo kahi gayi na mujhse

Voh zamaana keh raha hai 

Ke fasaana

Ke fasaana ban gayi hai 

Meri baat chalte chalte 

Yunhi koi mil gaya tha 

Sare raah chalte chalte 

Yunhi koi mil gaya tha

Sare raah chalte chalte

Chalte chalte

Sare raah chalte chalte

Chalte chalte

Chalte chalte, chalte chalte

Yunhi koi mil gaya tha 

Shabe intezaar aakhir 

Kabhi hogi muqtasar bhi 

Yeh chiraag

Yeh chiraag bujh rahe hain 

Mere saath jalte jalte 

Yeh chiraag bujh rahe hain

Yeh chiraag bujh rahe hain 

Mere saath jalte jalte 

Yunhi koi mil gaya tha 

Sare raah chalte chalte  

I donno which lines to leave out. Each lines tells its own story.

Those who know me wud agree with my choice of song.

But the similarities end. It ends where Ashi refused to take a stand  and bowed to his parents wishes. His parents who refused to accept me coz i come frm a broken family. And also becoz I am a bong.

Sad n pathetic. His Mom decreed tht he was to marry someone frm his own community, a UP gurl to be more precise.

I always thought tht ppl in mumbai are much more liberal n broad minded. But alas!!! A mis conception.Its incredible how such highly educated ppl are still stuck in the old mind set .

i mean rejection not becoz i am frm a diff religion or caste but coz i am a bong!!!

how stupid can it get??????????

Anyways u ppl enjoi the music....

I must be out of my mind tht i still am so much in love with Ashi.

Isn’t He Adorable?

Isnt he cute?

He is choooo chweet, na?

I simply love him.

Awwww how lost he looks. 

You’re the One I Love…

Gonna close my eyes
Gonna watch you go
Running through this life, darling
Like a field of snow

As the tracer glides
And its graceful arc
Send a little prayer up to you
‘Cross the falling dark

Tell the repo man
And the stars above
That you’re the one I love

I remeber u singing this song to me.

It’s the first one u sang to me.

It’s the 1st song u gave me.

And I remember tht it’s ur fav song.

Was I a fool to believe in u?

Didnt u mean a single word u said?

Was it just a song for u?

Was I just a passing fancy?

Did I ever mean anything to u?

But I mean every word I say, Ashi

I wud love u till I breathe my last 

I have lost all hopes of ever winning ur love.

I no longer delude myself.

Something’s in life are just meant to be.

And u r one of them.

U n I are not meant 2 be.

We remain 2 separate individuals

Who can never become one 

But I can continue to love u, right?

My love 4 u is selfless, it’s eternal.

Sounds cliche but yeah

You’re the One I Love 

But was I the one u love

Obviously, not.

Confessions of a broken hearted  in despair.

Playing with My Death

If I were 2 Die 2nite….

Wud u miss me?

Wud u really care?

How long wud it take 4 u 2 4get me?

Wud u actually remember me?

Wud u be glad?

Love is in the Air again!!!

Ah love is in the air again!!!

Got this in an email, so thought abt sharing it with u all.

The absolute of my existence

pyaar hai ya saja, aye mere dil bata
toot ta kyon nahi dard ka silsila
is pyaar mein hon kaise kaise imtihaan
ye pyaar likhe kaisi kaisi dastaan
ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar
ho ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar
pyaar hai ya saja, aai mere dil bata
toot ta kyun nahi dard ka silsila

kaisa hai safar wafa ki manzil ka
na hai koi hal dilon ki mushkil ka
dhadkan dhadkan bikhri ranjishein
saansein saansein tooti bandishein
kahi to har lamha honton pe fariyaad hai
kisi ki duniya chaahat mein barbaad hai
ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar
ho ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar

koi na sune sisakati aanhon ko
koi na dhare tadapati baahon ko
aadhi aadhi puri khwaishein
tooti footi sab farmaaishein
kahin shak hain kahin nafrat ki deewaar hai
kahin jeet mein bhi shamil palpal haar hain
ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar
ho ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar
pyaar hai ya saja, aai mere dil bata
toot ta kyon nahi dard ka silsila
na poocho dard bandon se
hansi kaisi khushi kaisi
musibat sar pe rehati hain
kabhi kaisi kabhi kaisi
ho o o o… rabba, rabba ho o o ho
rabba ho o o, ho o ho rabba

Sach hai… “ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar”

Always,

I shall want

only u

The absolute, of my existence.

Love Hurts…

Ashi has the hots for someone, he is over the moon with the sequence of events that unfolded last week.

ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar
ho ya rabba de de koi jaan bhi agar
dilbar pe ho na, dilbar pe ho na koi asar

Remaining open to Love

At times , wen we can do nothing else, we can stilll love- without expecting reward or change or gratitude.If we do this then the energy of love will begin to transform the universe about us. Wenever this energy appears,it always achieves its ends.

“Time does not  transform man. Will power dows not transform man. Love transforms,”says Henry Drummond.

Love transforms and love cures ; but, sometimes, love builds up deadly traps and can end up destroying a person who had resolved to give himself or herself completely.Wat is this complex feeling which, deep down, is the only reason we continue to live, struggle and improve?

It wud be impossible for me to attempt to define it, becoz i, along with every other human being, can only feel it. Thousands of books have been written on the subject, plays have been put on, films produced, poems composed, sculptures carved out of wood or marble;yet any artist can convey is idea of a feeling, not the feeling itself.

But I have learned tht this feeling is present in the small things, and manifests itself in the most insignificant of our actions.It is necessary, therefore to keep love always in mind, regardless of whether or not we take action.

Love requires creativity. It does not follow any recipe.

And wen none of this is possible,wen all tht remains is lonliness,then remember  tht at times , wen lonliness seems to crush all beauty, the only way to resist is to remain open.    

-PAULO COELHO

Conversation with the Ego-1

U know wat, whoever said “Out of sight ,out of mind” is 100% right.

I always thought that “distance makes the heart grow fonder”. But alas!!!! I was deluded.

I donno y am i such an idealist. I mean i live in my quaint little world where everyone is nice n trustworthy. Uff!! Wen will i grow up???

I thought tht …. ah to hell with my thoughts!My useless baseless irrational thoughts.

Y cant i be like the others? Sauve, sophisticated, with panache????Something like james bond, eh???? (laughs out heartily)

Hmmm….i guess i am plain stupid. Yeah i do admit it.

Wat r my future plans?

I donno. Wanted to do MBA. score’s not good enough.

So wat’s next?

I donno. I really donno. I never planned anything in my life.

Felt like speaking to Ashi last nite. I know , i know, u wud say tht everynite i feel the urge to speak to Ashi. But i cant help it. But i did restrain myself. I didnt call him. i picked up the reciever a million times, but somehow cudnt bring myself to call him.

He must be thinking tht i am slimy little creature who has no backbone of her own. 4 i can never prevent myself frm calling him up. though i have promised to do so a million times.

But ultimately my dignity integrity my self respect did make a protest against such humiliation.I always though(ah here comes my thought again) Anyways like i was saying i always thought tht in love ego/ pride they dont matter. It doesnt matter who apologises n tried to mend the broken fence.But i was wrong. Damn i am always proven wrong.Pride , Ego, they do play an important role in ur love life. It’s like a battle, u just cant allow the other person to win. NOOO way….!!!

It’s war!!! ur beloved is ur enemy. ha ha ha ha…. this is so weird but oh so true.

Hmm… now i know where the term “battle of sexes” emerged frm. ( heh heh heh …)

Strangely enough,in spite of all the reasoning, i cant bring myself to hate him.

I cant hate him coz i love him too much. I know i know,its wasted upon him.

Silly stupid me!!!

But u know wat, i can still see him in my mind, smiling, his eyes shining with so much mirth.

A part of me has died wen he left me.  

Happy Republic Day