JO NAHIN MILA….

I wudnt have posted two posts consecutively but a frnd of mine something really nice. I am touched by my frnds concern for my well being. She has chosen the best possible way to make me understand the fact that i need to move on with my life, she has sent me this beautiful gazal by none other than my fav artist Jagjit Singh. It’s a beautiful gazal, titled “Woh Nahin Mila” frm the album “Tum To Nahin Ho”. It has some of the most beautiful lines, plain simple yet so powerfully expressive of the situation i am in.  The song basically says tht there is no point dwelling on the past, let the bygones be bygones….

i wish it was so simple to forget n move on with life. I know i was stupid to fall in love with him. It was just a game for him. A pleasant timepass. But i never thought it to be some kind of “timepass”. i was involved heart n soul. I still am. maybe thts y it’s so damn difficult for me to move on with life. A part of me still lodges in the past, with Him.I donno how long it wud take me to overcome all my pain grief n heartache. maybe 10 mins, or 10 months , maybe 10 years or perhaps, 10 lives…..

But i am sorry i cant help dwelling on my past.No… I relive each moment i have spent with him. I have all the messages he sent me. I never had the heart to do away with them. Sometimes i go thru every single message , reliving those moments….his laughter echoes in my mind….

I am trapped in this vicious circle of memories frm the past… i guess i dont want to be set free…

Let me dwell on my happy days…. let me perish lost in the giddiness frm the past….Dont set me free…. i dont wanna be free….

The advice though so solicitous of my frnd, i cant follow it.I donno how to. I dont want to.Pls let me live in my past 4 my past is my future now….

Woh Nahi Mila To Malal Kya,
Jo Gujar Gya So Gujar Gaya,

Use Yaad Kar Ke Na Dil Dukha,
Jo Gujar Gya So Gujar Gya,

Na Gila Kiya Na Khafa Huye,
Yuhi Raste Mein Juda Huye,

Na Tu Bewafa Na Mein Bewafa,
Jo Gujar Gya So Gujar Gya,

Use Yaad Kar Ke Na Dil Dukha,
Jo Gujar Gya So Gujar Gya,

Tujhe Etbaro Yakeen Nahi,
Nahi Dunya Itni Buri Nahi,

Na Malal Kar Mere Saath Aa,
Jo Gujar Gya So Gujar Gya,

Woh Wafaye Thi Ke Jafaye Thi,
Yeh Na Soch Kis Ki Khataye Thi,

Woh Tera Hai Usko Gale Laga,
Jo Gujar Gya So Gujar Gya,

Woh Nahi Mila To Malal Kya,
Jo Gujar Gya So Gujar Gaya,

Use Yaad Kar Ke Na Dil Dukha,
Jo Gujar Gya So Gujar Gya

 

Where the teardrops fall…

One of my favourite Bob Dylan songs. I  tried looking for the video so that u all wud have enjoyed the good song. But, Alas!I found it nowhere.Anyways i wanted to draw ur attention to the beautiful lyrics. It tells a sad tale…

Far Away where the soft winds blow,
Far away from it all,
There is a place you go
Where teardrops fall.

Far away in the stormy night,
Far away and over the wall,
You are there in the flickering light
Where teardrops fall.

We banged the drum slowly
And played the fife lowly,
You know the song in my heart.
In the turning of twilight,
In the shadows of moonlight,
You can show me a new place to start.

I’ve torn my clothes and I’ve drained the cup,
Strippin’ away at it all,
Thinking of you when the sun comes up
Where teardrops fall.

By rivers of blindness,
In love and with kindness
We could hold up a toast if we meet.
To the cuttin’ of fences,
To sharpen the senses
That linger in the fireball heat.

Roses are red, violets are blue,
And time is beginning to crawl,
I just might have to come see you
Where teardrops fall.

A Question by Robert Frost

A poem by my favourite poet. I am in a melancholic mood. This poem makes perfect sense to me in my present state of mind. It is so strange, in the morning I was so full of life brimming with optimism, n lppk at me now, feeling so dejected….

A Question by Robert Frost

A voice said, Look me in the stars
And tell me truly, men of earth,
If all the soul-and-body scars
Were not too much to pay for birth.

 

I love Strawberry Shortcake…

Heh heh heh…now here is something which is bound to make u feel better. It might make u bit nostalgic as well for it is something out of our childhood. Lets relive it for few seconds,the innocence, the purity , the naivete….

 :-)

Remember “Strawberry Shortcake”? I loved the series. I am sure u all did too.

Here we go…

Boys and girls,
mums and dads,
brothers and sisters,
cats and dogs,
welcome to the world of strawberry shortcake!!

who sleeps all night in a cake made of strawberries,
wakes up bright in a cake made of strawberries,
lives in a road in a cake made of strawberries,
strawberry shortcake, wouldn’t you know,

who sweeps her floors in a cake made of strawberries,
plays outdoors of a cake made of strawberries,
cleans and chores in a cake made of strawberries,
strawberry shortcake wouldn’t you know

it’s love that makes her garden grow,
with lots of pretty berries in a row,
she greets each day with a berrie glow,
It’s strawberry shortcake wouldn’t you know

what’s it like to stay in a cake made of strawberries,
work and play in a cake made of strawberries,
learn the way of little miss strawberry,
strawberry shortcake, and you will know,

strawberry shortcake and she’ll know

Lovely New Theme

I like this new theme. What say u?

Against All Odds

All I can do now is wait… an endless wait. Culminating in nothingness. “There is nothing lefthere to remind me just the memory of ur face.” An emptiness left behind by u.

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we’ve shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there’s just an empty space
And there’s nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there’s just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds and that’s what I’ve got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There’s so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You’re the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there’s just an empty space
And there’s nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there’s just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all I can do and that’s what I’ve got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos I’ll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It’s the chance I’ve gotta take

Take a look at me now

And I Love U So…

This is  a song dedicated to love of my life. Pay close attention to the lyrics, so simple so beautiful, so naive….

And i love you so.
The people ask me how,
How i’ve lived till now.
I tell them i don’t know.

I guess they understand
How lonely life has been.
But life began again
The day you took my hand.

And, yes, i know how lonely life can be.
The shadows follow me, and the night won’t set me free.
But i don’t let the evening get me down
Now that you’re around me.

And you love me, too.
Your thoughts are just for me;
You set my spirit free.
I’m happy that you do.

The book of life is brief
And once a page is read,
All but love is dead.
That is my belief.

And, yes, i know how loveless life can be.
The shadows follow me, and the night won’t set me free.
But i don’t let the evening bring me down
Now that you’re around me.

And i love you so.
The people ask me how,
How i’ve lived till now.
I tell them, “i don’t know.”

my memories….are a bundle of nothing..

my memories….are a bundle of nothing..
all mixed up
like a pebble in the water u throw
ripples
memories
then all is quiet
as if nothing happened
did u not see
the pebble now lies underneath
a part of the waters
untraceable

Aisi Lagi Lagan, Meera Ho Gai Magan …

I am scared of being happy. So offering a small prayer to u, God! This has always been my fav bhajan. I too am madly in love with someone (Ashi).I am so lost in love, that only redemption possible is thru the love of my Lord, my God! I only have the name of my love on my lips. Ashi is the only King of my Universe n my life belongs to him.

No I dont compare myself to Meera, her love is ethereal, pure transcending all ages.She was indeed one of the foremost embodiments of Premabhakthi that ever walked on earth.

Meera sang n danced on “Mere Janama Maran ke sathee”. I too have accepted someone as my “Mere Janama Maran ke sathee” . I have full faith in God, He wud show me a way.He wud take care of me.

Aisi Lagi Lagan, Meera Ho Gai Magan …

Aisi lagi lagan, Meera ho gayi magan
Wo to gali-gali hari guna ganne lagi
Mehlo mein pali, ban ke jogun chali
Meera rani divani kahane lagi
Aisi lagi lagan, Meera ho gayi magan

Koi roke nahi, koi toke nahi
Meera govinda gopal-e ganne lagi
Baithi santon ke sang, rangi mohan ke rang
Meera premi pritam ko manane lagi

Aisi lagi lagan, Meera ho gayi magan
Wo to gali-gali hari guna ganne lagi
Mehlo mein pali, ban ke jogun chali
Meera rani divani kahane lagi
Aisi lagi lagan, Meera ho gayi magan

Rana ne vish diya, mano amrit piya
Meera sagar mein sarita samane lagi
Dukh-e lakhon sahe, mukse govind kahe
Meera govinda gopal-e ganne lagi

Aisi lagi lagan, Meera ho gayi magan
Wo to gali-gali hari guna ganne lagi
Mehlo mein pali, ban ke jogun chali
Meera rani divani kahane lagi
Aisi lagi lagan, Meera ho gayi magan

 

Memories…

Memory’s a wonderful thing if you don’t have to deal with the past.

 Memories are so tormenting.

They dont let u live. They dont let u die.

U are left suspended in a state of limbo.

Set me free, oh please set me free…

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