The First Cut Is The Deepest …

I would have given you all of my heart
But there’s someone who’s torn it apart
And he’s taken just all that i have
But if you want i’ll try to love again
Baby, i’ll try to love again, but i know… The first cut is the deepest
Baby i know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein’ lucky, he’s cursed
When it comes to lovin’ me, he’s worse…

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that i’ve cried
And i’m sure gonna give you a try
If you want i’ll try to love again, (try)
Baby, i’ll try to love again, but i know…

OOHHH,
The first cut is the deepest
Baby i know
The first cut is the deepest
But when it comes to bein’ lucky, he’s cursed
But when it comes to lovin’ me, he’s worse…

I still want you by my side
Just to help me dry the tears that i’ve cried
But i’m sure gonna give you a try
Cuz if you want i’ll try to love again
(try to love again, try to love again)
Baby, i’ll try to love again but i know, OOHHH….

The first cut is the deepest
Baby i know
The first cut is the deepest
When it comes to bein’ lucky, he’s cursed
When it comes to lovin’ me, he’s worse

OOHHH, the first cut is the deepest
Baby i know (baby i know)
The first cut is the deepest
Try to love again…

I love this song. It’s awesome! The first cut surely is the deepest.U try to forget n get on with ur life, but a part of u is still left behind in the past, craving his touch. He who lightened up ur world, who made the world a beautiful place again, he who gave u hope…

U bleed to death wen u are left alone.Trying to choke me with memories.I will fight my demons alone. No one can help me exorcise them.I will fight them, i wont give up.

But how do u fight love?

Doesn’t world make the world go around,making lives beautiful, spreading smiles? Or is love confined to the pages of a fairy tale?

” tears can tell, how hard I fell”

” tears can tell, how hard I fell” Sometimes when we’re lost, alone, quite, in pain, betrayed, upset, confused, frustrated, angry and so on………

There are so many emotions which sum up into tears, Sometimes they roll down when we are extremely happy…

My Silent Cry, is just apart of Me.

We do not know if someone will come to wipe away those tears, but we do know that my tears are talking, They are trying to say something.

” Days WiLl PaSs And tuRn InTo YeArs.. But I WiLl AlwaYs RemEmbER Ya WiTh Ma SileNt TeaRz ….. WhEn ….

I lie alone,eyes made of stone. I weep in my mind,tears are hard to find. I could have been,what i had seen. But my one last word,was left unheard…

just wanted to say, “i love u”

hey!!

And i just wanted to say that i love u, ashi…   

i wanted to call u up n simply say “i love u”.

But I am not allowed, coz u have forbidden me, no not to call u but to ever say those words to u.

it feels so frustrating, i cant even tell u that i love u.

i was looking at ur pics with a foolish smile on my face. (giggles)

Saying over n over again…”i love you, ashi”.

hey didnt someone say that if u love somebody with all ur haert, u just might get a second chance?i hope whoever said it is true, 4 i wudnt want anything better than to have him back.

I dont want anything else in my life except u, ashi.i want ur love back…i want u back…..

i love u 4 eternity…

yes even if u dont love me….

i wud still continue loving u, hoping n praying that someday u just might…..

anyways…. we r losing the imp issue in this voluble talk

and the imp issue being tht….

I Love You, Ashi…

bored…zzzzzzz!!!!

I am bored. My exams are starting from 20th feb and I just cant concentrate on my studies. I tried looking up 4 few things on the net to help me prepare 4 my papers, but to no avail. I cudnt concentrate and i ended up blogging. (sigh) 
It was so windy today n i as most women consider myself to be immune to cold. I didnt wear a jacket n consequently i have a running nose. Hmm…I wonder y we women consider wearing warm clothes a fate worse than death. Believe me we dont even wanna get caught dead in warm clothes

I took some interesting tests but i cudnt put the results up on WordPress. I donno , this blog is weird. I think blogger is much more better than this but then it didnt show a correct stats. Hmmm I guess  u gain some u lose some….

Ok i am bored of typing too, so i will cut it short now….

Any suggestions to ward off my boredom?

They Are Not You …

Sajna Ve Sajna…

I was wondering wat to post today. I mean watever I post has to be special.It being a valentines day, after all… right?

I thought, and I thought hard. Nothing inspirational flashed into my head.  I donno wat to write that wud prove my love for Ashi.I thought abt writing a poem but decided against it.Poetry has to come frm within u, it cant be manufactured at ur whim. So I had to drop that idea too.

All the while  I was thinking abt wat to do to make this day SPECIAL, I was listening to “Sajna Ve Sajna” from Chameli.Ah! I know many ppl didnt like the movie. The subject being controversial n not at all acceptable in “polite Indian society”, no matter how much we claim to be broadminded/ modern, we always look at certain issues with a critical eye. I donno y ppl cant accept it into their normal folds of life. After all this is LIFE!!! U just cant close ur eyes to  unpleasanness around u.

Anyways, I just loved the movie “Chameli”. Though I am not a fan of Kareena Kapaur, I did feel that she acted brilliantly in the movie. And as for the songs in the movie, I simply loved them,especially”sajna ve sajna”. The lyrics are fabulous!!! The expression is so beautiful.And Sunidhi adds so much life. It’s a livewire . Too good a song.

But going back to the expressions in the song, its fabulous.The emotions evoked are so unruly, raw, intense….so natural.It bares up ur soul. It leaves u stripped off ur armour, completely vulnerable in front of ur beloved.The evocation of love wrenches ur heart .U can actually feel the words clawing at u, biting in to ur soul!!!It’s so damn powerful.

I love listening to the “Chameli” songs after a hard day at college especially if I am feeling melancholic, which is often.So on this special day, ASHI, imagine it’s me singing out to u, though I know u wud have no clue wat song is this n frm wat movie, but that doesnt matter. Wat matters is the expression , right?And it matters that i mean every single word Sunidhi sings.

This goes out to u, Ashi…

Mann saath samandar dol gaya jo tu aankhon se bol gaya…

Oh… mann saath samandar dol gaya jo tu aankhon se bol gaya

Le teri ho gayi yaar sajna ve sajna, ho sajna mere yaar sajna ve sajna

Jo saath samandar dol gaya tere pyaar mein le bin bol gaya  

Le teri ho gayi yaar sajna ve sajna, oh sajna mere yaar sajna ve sajna

Oh re oh sajna oh...

Tujhe bhar loon apni aankhon mein, in aankhon ko main kholoon na

Kholoon apni baaton main phir is duniya se boloon na

Bhar loon apni aankhon mein, in aankhon ko main kholoon na

Kholoon apni baaton main phir is duniya se boloon na

Ho...

Main dekhoon main baat karoon tere saath jeeyoon tere saath maroon 

Le teri ho gayi yaar sajna ve sajna, ho sajna mere yaar sajna..

Sajna…sajna...

Tu aur kissi ka na hona, main jeete jee mar jaaungi

Teri khaatir duniya se ab tanha hi lad jaaungi

Aur kissi ka na hona, main jeete jee mar jaaungi

Teri khaatir duniya se ab tanha hi lad jaaungi

Maine tujhko kahaan piya ye tan-man tere naam kiya  

Le teri ho gayi yaar sajna…oh sajna mere yaar sajna ve sajna

Mann saath samandar dol gaya jo tu aankhon se bol gaya…

Oh… mann saath samandar dol gaya jo tu aankhon se bol gaya

Le teri ho gayi yaar sajna ve sajna, ho sajna mere yaar sajna ve sajna

Ho…sajna…sajna…sajna…sajna…sajna…

I mean everyword Ashi, i am crazy abt u. I want to die with the image of ur face in my eyes.U r the world for me.U are my world.

You Owe Me Nothing In Return…

I'll give you careless amounts of out right 
 
Acceptance if you want it. I'll give you 
 
Encouragements to choose the path 
 
you want if you need it.
 
You can speak of anger and doubts,
 
Your fears and freak-outs and I'll hold it.
 
You can share your so-called 
 
Shame filled accounts of times in your life 
 
and I won't judge it.
 
And there are no strings attached,
 
You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give.
 
You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have.
 
I give you thanks for receiving; it's my privilege,
 
And you owe me nothing in return. 
 
 You can ask for space for yourself 
 
And only yourself and I'll grant it.
 
You can ask for freedom as was
 
Or time to revel and you'll have it.
 
You can ask to live by yourself
 
Or love someone else and I'll support it.
 
You can ask for anything you want 
 
Anything at all and I'll understand it.
 
I bet you're wondering when
 
The next payback you'll eventually drop.
 
I bet you're wondering when my conditions 
 
or policies will force you to cough up.
 
I bet you're wondering how far 
 
you now have danced moved back into dead.
 
This is the only kind of love 
 
As I understand it that there really is.
 
You can express your deepest of truths
 
Even if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear it.
 
You can fall into the abyss
 
On the way to your bliss
 
And I'll empathize with.
 
You can't say that you'll have to skip town
 
To chase your passion and I'll hear it.
 
You can leave and hit rock bottom 
 
have a mid-life crisis and I'll hold it.
 

Congrats Ashi, On ur engagement…

I wish Ashi all the love  n happiness in the world.I hope he has a long happy married life.

I knew this wud happen one day, never knew it wud be so soon.I am not the only one how has experienced heartache. There are millions who have loved and lost.My situation isnt unique. Neither do i pretend that i feel more than the others . I pray to God to give me enough strength to endure this pain n heartache. I should thank it’s not u who broke the news to me. I wouldnt have been able to stop myself frm breaking into tears n making a fool of myself in front of u n embarrassing u as well as myself.

Mubaarakein tumhe ke tum

Kisi ke noor ho gaye

Kisi ke itne paas ho

Ke sab se door ho gaye

Ajeeb daastaan hai yeh

Kahan shuru kahan khatam

Yeh manzile hai kaunsi

Na voh samajh sake na hum

Kisi ka pyaar leke tum

Naya jahan basaaoge

Yeh shaam jab bhi aayegi

Tum humko yaad aaoge

Ajeeb daastaan hai yeh

Kahan shuru kahan khatam

Yeh manzile hai kaunsi

Na voh samajh sake na hum

 I dont want to write much in my present condition. It’s understandable that i want to be left alone so that i can cry my heart out. I apologise for being so weak, but then i cant help it. anyone who has loved n lost wud understand that the pain grief n despair almost chokes the life out of you.My world has crashed. I need time to rebuild it.

I will always remember the good times we had.I will always remember u.I will try not to weep for the memories.I wont let the good times that we had slip away now that things have become bad for me that is.I am screaming inside but i cant be heard.But i will always remember u. And i will always love u.

Once there was darkness all around me and u gave me light.I was so afraid to love u. More afraid to lose.But u gave me everything u had. U gave me ur light.

Anyways…

Congarts Ashi on ur engagement.

Wishing u a very long n happy married life.

with or without u, i’ll always love u

“In everybody’s life there is certain somebody, the person that she loves more than anybody else.Sometimes u r lucky enough to be with him.Sometimes u are unlucky to be without him. But with or without him , u will always love him.”

I thought i wud post this on Valentines Day, but i guess its the emotions that matter the most. So here i am posting this lovely song. Each word of the song is significant in its own way.Those who have loved n lost wud understand the pain behind the song. It’s so heart wrenching.It’s so difficult to let go of the person whom u love the most.But u have to let them go becoz thats where their happiness lie.U let them go even if it kills u.

But even if it breaks our heart, we never forget to wish the other person joy n happiness.It hurts to know that u are not wat the other person has been seeking yet u wish that they wud find the one they r looking for. 

This is all i have to say to u on this valentines day….

With or Without You,

Darling,I Will Always Love You…

If I should stay
I would only be in your way.
So I’ll go but I know
I’ll think of you
Every step of the way.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You my darling you mmm

Bittersweet memories,
That is all I’m taking with me.
So goodbye, please don’t cry.
We both know I’m not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have
All you’ve dreamed of.
And I wish for you joy
And happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

I, I will always love you.
You, darling I love you.
I’ll always, I’ll always love you.

ELEVEN MINUTES – Quotes

• “At every moment of our lives, we all have one foot in a fairy tale and the other in the abyss.”