kitni der tak ?

There is a feeling of deja vu. This song reminded me of the time when i hardly knew Ashi. I was so uncertain abt him. There was a certain clumsiness, awkward silence bet us, which we used to fill up with useless chatter. Rather it used to me who used to jabber away  abt books, music, movies over cups of coffee.

I remember how afraid of him not being the right guy for me. though some people still consider him not “right” for me. But i think he is perfect, and i love him in spite of everything that has happened. i know my stupidity is boundless but… love is blind right?

Past seems so distant now. As if it all had happened in another lifetime. A long long time ago. But come to think of it. It was two years ago that I had met him. I met him when i was hardly nineteen. I was in the first year of my college, a fresher, just out of school when i met Ashi for the first time.

But the romance didnt last long. He broke just after a year. No not even a year, but rather after a couple of months.

Anyway, i was talking abt our “first 50 dates”. Gosh it was such an exciting time. Every time i met him , i was left breathless by his charm. He just swept me off my feet. I fell headlong into love with Ashi.

kitni der tak tum baahar rukogi

kitni der tak mein rukuun yahaan

kitni der tak tum sochati rahogi

yeh mein bhi dekhunga 

kitni der tak tum, mujhe na kahogi 

apane sheher aane ko 

kitni der tak, dhundana hai bahaana tumhe 

kisi bhi tarah chhune ka..

(kitni der tak  

aaj shaam ya savere tak)  

odo? baad main door jaana

rowaanga mein baithe door kise kone vich

mud ke ni geet yeh main gaana 

odo  baad main tur  jaana 

odo  baad tu tur  jaana 

kitne der tum baatien karogi

filmo ki aur falsafon ki

kitni der aarjoo aad mein chhupegi 

coffee ki aur kehkaho ki

kitni der tak uss dil mein rahega

mere naam par ek sawaal

kitni der tak yeh chhndana girega

saath mein chalegi taal

(kitni der tak   

aaj shaam ya savere tak)  

odo? baad main tur javaa

rowaanga mein baithe door kise kone vich

mud ke ni geet main gaana

odo  baad main tur jaana 

odo  baad tu tur jaana

(kitni der tak  

aaj shaam ya savere tak)  

odo? baad main door jaana

rowaanga mein baithe door kise kone vich

mud ke ni geet main gaana 

odo  baad main tur jaana 

odo  baad tu tur jaana

(kitni der tak  

aaj shaam ya savere tak)  

 

aye ho meri zindagi mein tum bahar banke

I am all dreamy eyed today. I donno y. but suddenly i feel this huge tide of love sweeping me off my feet.

I feel so much love for Him. My poor baby is down with fever. he has cold n cough n a very bad throat. i felt like weeping wen i heard him last nite on phone. I felt so miserable. i wish i was there so that i cud do something for him.

Oh god!! I never knew love makes u so vulnerable. i felt so helpless. I cudnt see him suffer that way. i felt tears brimming my eyes.

I love him too much to see him sad/ suffering. He is my life. I know we cant be anything more than frnds. But that doesnt stop me frm loving him like a crazy fool that i am. I love him n wud do anything to make him happy.

Get well soon, baby. Miss u loads my sweet untidy disorganised bhalu.

Aye ho meri zindagi me tum bahar banke

Mere dil me yuhi rahena tum pyar pyar banke

Ankho me tum base ho sapne hazar banke 

Mere dil me yuhi rahena tum pyar pyar banke

Mere sathi mere sajaan mere saath yuhi chalna

Badle ga raang zamana par tum nahi badalna

Meri maang yuhi bharna taare hazar ban ke

Aye ho meri zindagi me tum bahar banke

Mere dil me yuhi rahena tum pyar pyar banke

Agar me jo rooth jao to tum mujhe manana

Thama hai haath mera phir umar bhar nibhana

Mujhe chod ke na jana waade hazar karke

Aye ho meri zindagi me tum bahar banke

Mere dil me yuhi rahena tum pyar pyar banke

Ankho me tum base ho sapne hazar banke 

Mere dil me yuhi rahena tum pyar pyar banke

I cudnt find the female version of the song!

fine leg!!!

Last nite Ashi dropped in. Well the reason is he suddenly had this intense desire to see me. And since he didnt he have any pics of mine. He buzzed. Said he wants to see some of my snaps. It was 3 am in the morning. I said i dont have any. He kept on insisting. i said not even wild horses can drag me out of the bed at 3 am in the morning. He quitened down. This approach always works. I sighed n said ok but just this once. So i looged in at 3:15 am. Tried searching 4 some pics. Cudnt find any. coz i dont save them. Then had to bring my photos cd out. searched  4 some NICE pics. Showed him. He smiled. I smiled. I asked, “so?”. He kept on smiling. I said , “common man, give me some feedback.” He says, “U have gorgeous legs”!! My jaw almost dropped. I was furious at him. i woke up at an ungodly hr to show him pics n pander to his whims and all he can say abt is u have nice legs!!! 

Wat is with guys n legs? I really dont understand. I asked him wat but all he said  tht too unabashedly was,” i him always loved a leg piece!” So cheeky of him.

Fossils’ Dekho Manasi

Ei post ta is dedicated to my bong frnds who come n visit my blog n read only the post called aamar bhitore bahire… I mean yeah i know they love the song more than they do my blog! Sometimes i think ppl dont read wat i am writing but rather more interested in the songs.

Anyways its embarrassing but even though i am a bong i cant speak bengali fluently. Nor can I read it. pathetic, i know.

I am definitely not into bong songs.And i am definitely not into bangla rock bands. But one day a frnd of mine sent me this awesome song. I didnt listen to it becoz i wasnt really interested. later on he sent me the lyrics too, i guess he knew i hadnt listened to the song. And afterI heard  i was totally in love with the song. It was love at first at sight. Believe me i still dont like bangla rock band songs, becoz they just dont come close to Fossils’ “Dekho Manasi”.

Listen to it guys, if u havent! It’s awesome!!

My Dil Goes mmmmm….

Ah I heard this cute song while coming back home today. It’s such a sweet song. reminds me of the times we were together.We had such gr8 time together. There never was a dull moment wen He was around. We wud spend half of our time fighting. He used to call to “jhagdaaloo”. It was his sweet nickname for me becoz I used to fight with him on the slightest of occasions.  Once he reamrked tht Pepsodent is the reason behind my all nite long fights with him. The rogue! I remember tht comment pissed the hell out of me n we ended up pillow fighting. heh heh heh…

In retrospect i guess i loved fighting with him. We used to have such seet fights. Yeah fights can we sweet.He is simply adorable and the ways he came up to cheer me up were simply amazing. I always ended bursting into laughter. I just cudnt keep a straightface wen he was around. his was such a charming man, na. I just cudnt stop myself frm melting into watever plans he had for both of us. To tell u the truth I never cud resist him much. I am addicted to him. I cudnt live one day without him. Without seeing him. Without talking to him.

Now I am living all alone. He is somewhere else.  And I am here. Two different individuals who were once one are living apart.

i remember how i used to wait for Him.And as always he used to turn up late! It so damn annoyed me. He wud never keep his words. he wud say he wud call me frm office n then he wud forget all abt it. We wud make plans to meet somewhere but he wud forget all abt it. It was only after i wud remind him tht he wud come rushing. Ah!!! The man used to get on my nerves.

he is the laziest bum on earth. Yeah i donno wats wrong with him. He had some kind of aversion to taking of showers. He wud seldom shave. Yeah he used to go months without shaving. Ah his beard used to be so damn prickly! I was sick n tired of telling him to shave. Oh and he also had an aversion to getting a hair cut.  Simply speaking He had an aversion to looking neat n tidy. U shud look at his room. Its a clutter. There is not an inch of clear space available. He is untidy, unorganised lazy bum. And i simply love him for watever he is like. 

Did i tell u abt his cell phone? Oh it used to piss me really bad. It used to konk at the oddest of the moments. I mean here we r talking n in the middle of the conversation the battery used to run out. Damn!! @#$%^&* 

Anyways, i dont wanna write abt all of them in one nite only. will tell u all abt it later. Listen to this song, reminds me of the times we were together.

To the fun times we had together…

aati hain woh aaise chal ke jaise  jannat mein rehti hain
dekhti hain sabko aaise jaise sabko woh sehti hain
par gusse mein jo aaye aur ankhein woh dikhlaye
ladte ladte galti se muskaaye
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….

karti hu jab usse baatein lagta hain sone wala hain
soke jab jabbhi woh jaage lagta hain rone wala hain
par chupke se woh meri neend se mujhe jagaye
le baahon mein aur khud hi woh gir jaaye
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….

ha woh na na karti hain
ha bada akadti hain
ha thodisi ziddi hain
ha akal se piddi hain
aate hain sab woh aaye, na aaye woh jaati hain
tedhi in baaton se mujhko yeh satati hain
har waqt se pehle aanaa sunn na na koi bahana
par dekhna mera rasta rojana
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….

ha picture mein rota hain
ha khulle muh sota hain
ha jara nalayak hain
ha pitne ke layak hain
jaane kya kehta hain jaane kya karta hain
sofe pe chadhta hain pardo se ladta hain
jab karne lage safaai samjho ke shaamat aayi
fir thak ke jab leta hain angdaai
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….

ha thodi alag si hain
ha thodi galat si hain
ha thoda alag si hain
ha thoda galat si hain 
aaisi bhi hogi woh aaisa na socha tha
aaisa hi hoga woh aaisa hi socha tha
kyo lagta hain yeh apna
yeh sach hain ya hain sapna
dar lagta hain kahi ho na jaaye jhuth
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….
my dil goes mmmmmm….

 (hmm… if the song offends anyone, apologies on my behalf. but i cudnt find any umm censored clips!!! The perverts!!!)