I guess its easier to say that i would forget him than actually forgetting.  I believe no one can forget anything. Not an insult. Not a challenege. And definitely not LOVE! Yet we perpetually try to forget and move on with life. Eventually even if we do succeed to move on with life, we dont forget.  It remains in a little dark corner of our hearts. And its our memories tht make us wat we r in the present. Maybe u r cynical and sceptical abt love.  maybe u r stronger than b4, emotionally.  It can be anything.

I realised i am weak. I cant forget him. i dont know whether i can forgive him though. Maybe yes for i love him too much to hold a grudge against him. I would try to forget him. and move on with my life.  Because thts wat we r advised to do. how successful i might be, remains to be seen.

Sometimes i wonder y doesnt time fly away swiftly like it does in movies. A sad melancholic song and immediately after tht u r back  in a siatuation which holds a promise of a future together. Films me kabhi yeh nahin bataya gaya ki it would take ages to get over heartache. Or how difficult it is to pass each day without tht someone special.

Bichhde Abhi To Ham Bas Kal Parson
Jioongi Main Kaise, Is Haal Mein Barson
Maut Na Aayi Teri Yaad Kyon Aayi
Hay Lambi Judai
Chaar Dinon Ka Pyaar Ho Rabba
Badi Lambi Judai, Lambi Judai
Honthon Pe Aaye Meri Jaan Duhai
Hay Lambi Judai
Chaar Dinon Ka Pyaar Ho Rabba
Badi Lambi Judai, Lambi Judai

Ek To Sajan Mere Paas Nahin Re
Duje Milan Di Koi Aas Nahin Re -2
Uspe Yeh Sawan Aaya -2
Aag Lagaayi, Hay Lambi Judai
Chaar Dinon Ka Pyaar Ho Rabba
Badi Lambi Judai, Lambi Judai

Toote Zamaane Tere Haath Nigode, Haath Nigode
Dil Se Dilon Ke Tune Sheeshe Tode, Sheeshe Tode
Hijr Ki Oonchi, Hijr Ki Oonchi Deevaar Banaayi
Hay Lambi Judai
Chaar Dinon Ka Pyaar Ho Rabba
Badi Lambi Judai, Lambi Judai

Baag Ujad Gaye, Baag Ujad Gaye Khilne Se Pehle
Panchhi Bichhad Gaye Milne Se Pehle -2
Koyal Ki Kook, Koyal Ki Kook Ne Hook Uthaayi
Hay Lambi Judai
Chaar Dinon Ka Pyaar Ho Rabba
Badi Lambi Judai, Lambi Judai
Honthon Pe Aaye Meri Jaan, Duhai
Hay Lambi Judai
Chaar Dinon Ka Pyaar Ho Rabba
Badi Lambi Judai, Lambi Judai

Once upon a time … yes it was once upon a time, or rather long long time ago wen i dreamt of falling n love, when i didnt know of all the heartaches of being in love, this is how i dreamt of my love story to be like.

Things didnt turn out the way i dreamt. I loved. He didnt love me back. My love didnt transcend boundaries of class, caste, race etc. It got tangled up in all the politicas of social norms and was stifled, or rather withered away b4 it cud have blossomed. anyway, the past is past. I just request u all those ppl in love, pls for heaven’s sake dont let caste, religion etc matter. Pls! Believe me love is hard to find. Only the fortunate get it. Rest spend their lives either searching for tht special person wud matter to them most n love them the most.  A majority of us once we find it try to find ways how to live our lives without it, like i do.

Aur aahista kijiye baatein, dhadakane koi sun raha hoga - 2
Labj girane na paaye honton se, waqt ke haath inako chun lenge
Kaan rakhate hain ye darodiva, raaj ki saari baat sun lenge
Aur aahista kijiye baatein

Aise bolo ki dil ka afasaana, dil sune aur nigaah doharaaye - 2
Apane chaaro taraf ki ye duniya
Saans ka shor bhi na sun paaye, na sun paaye
Aur aahista kijiye baatein, dhadakane koi sun raha hoga
Labj girane na paaye hoton se, waqt ke haath inako chun lenge
Kaan rakhate hain ye darodiva, raaj ki saari baat sun lenge
Aur aahista kijiye batein...

Aayiye band karale darwaaje, raat sapane chura na le jaaye - 2
Koi jhonka hawa ka aawara, dil ki baaton ko uda na le jaye, na le jaye
Aur aahista kijiye baatein, dhadakane koi sun raha hoga
Labj girane na paaye hoton se, waqt ke haath inako chun lenge
Kaan rakhate hain ye darodiva, raaj ki saari baat sun lenge
Aur aahista kijiye baatein

Aaj itane karib aa jaao , duriyon ka kahi nishaan na rahe - 2
Aise ek dusare me gum ho jayen, faasala koi darmiya na rah jaye, na rah jaye
Aur aahista kijiye baatein, dhadakane koi sun raha hoga
Labj girane na paaye hoton se, waqt ke haath inako chun lenge
Kaan rakhate hain ye darodiva, raaj ki saari baat sun lenge
Aur aahista kijiye baatein

O Re Piya Haaye - 3
Udne Laga Kyon Man Baawla Re, Aaya Kahaan Se Yeh Hosla Re
O Re Piya Haaye - 2

Taanaabaana Taanaabaana Bunti Hawaa Haaye Bunti Hawaa
Boondein Bhi To Aaye Nahi Baaz Yahaan Haaye
Sagish Mein Shaamil Saara Jahaan Hai
Har Zarrein Zarrein Ki Yeh Iltiza Hai
O Re Piya, (O Re Piya Haaye - 2), O Re Piya

Nazrein Bolein Duniya Tolein, Dil Ki Zaban Haaye Dil Ki Zubaan
Ishq Maange, Ishq Chaahe Koi Toofaan Haaye
Chalna Aahiste Ishq Naya Hai, Pehla Yeh Vaada Humne Kiya Hai
O Re Piya Haaye - 2, O Re Piya
Piyaaaaa.... Yeh Piyaaaaa...............

Nange Pairo Pe Angaaro Chalti Rahi Haaye Chalti Rahi
Lagta Hai Ke Gairo Mein Palti Rahi Haaye
Le Chal Wahaan Jo Mulk Tera Hai, Jaahil Zamana Dushman Mera Hai Haaye
O Re Piya Haaye...........

Yep! it’s always been me. I who had come begging crawling back to apologize n make up even wen it was not my fault. Sometimes i was mad at myself for being so weak. I was so humiliating not to stay away as proclaimed in the heat of the fights. I should have been stronger. But back then it didnt matter if my ego was shredded into a million pieces. The only thing that mattered was to be back with him.  In retospect i believe i should have been stronger. maybe then we wouldnt have ended the way we did today. Maybe then i wouldnt have been considered inconsequential flimsy whimsical. Maybe…

(Tere dar par sanam chale aaye

Tu na aaya to hum chale aaye) – 2

Chale aaye, chale aaye

Tere dar par sanam chale aaye

Tu na aaya to hum chale aaye

Bin tere koi aas bhi na rahi

Itne tarse ke pyaas bhi na rahi

Oh, bin tere koi aas bhi na rahi

Itne tarse ke pyaas bhi na rahi – 2

Ladkhadaaye kadam, chale aaye – 2

Chale aaye, chale aaye

Tere dar par sanam chale aaye

Tu na aaya to hum chale aaye

(Dil ko dhadka laga tha pal pal to

Shor sun le na koi paayal ka) – 2

Phir bhi teri kasam chale aaye – 2

Chale aaye, chale aaye

(Tere dar par sanam chale aaye

Tu na aaya to hum chale aaye) – 2

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Ek Heer Thi Aur Tha Ek Raanjha,
Kehte Hai Mere Gaon Mein,
Sacha Ho Dil To.., Sau Mushkilen Ho
Jhukta Naseeba Pao Mein..,
Ho Ho..Aanchal Tera Rabba;
Falak Ban Gaya Hai,
Ab Iska Nahi, Koi Ore, Koi Chore

Ok! I heard an awesome song today at the gym. I know I know this song came out a long time ago. But i never listened to it b4. today while i was working out at the gym i heard this song. And i fell in love with it , just like that! It’s such a beautiful song! I specially like that background “desi” chorus it makes the song super cool! And the tune is sooooooooooooooo melodious!   A little haunting! Keeps playing in ur mind. “teri ore, teri ore, hai rabba”  Oh btw, the above stanza is my fav in the song. I think its very true n inspiring. I worked out extra 1 hr 2day just o hear the song being played again. heh heh heh

oh n ur inputs n comments r off course “welcome” ( i’m getting tired of katrina akshsy pair) uff! too much of their dose on screens nowdays.

Dil Kho Gaya, Ho Gaya Kisi Ka..,
Ab Raasta Mil Gaya, Khushi Ka..
Aankhon Mein Hai Khwab Sa, Kisi Ka..
Ab Raasta Mil Gaya, Khushi Ka..
Rishta Naya Rabba, Dil Chu Raha Hai,
Kheeche Mujhe Koi Dore, Teri Ore..

Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Hai Rabba..Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore
Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Hai Rabba..Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore

Khulti Fizaein, Khulti Ghatayein,
Sar Pe Naya Hai Aasamaan,
Chaaro Dishayein, Hass Ke Bulaye,
Yu Sab Hue Hai Meharbaan..
Haaan..Hume To Yahi Rabba,
Kasam Se Pata Hai,
Dil Pe Nahi, Koi Zor, Koi Zor

Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Hai Rabba..Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore
Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Hai Rabba..Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore

Ek Heer Thi Aur Tha Ek Raanjha,
Kehte Hai Mere Gaon Mein,
Sacha Ho Dil To.., Sau Mushkilen Ho
Jhukta Naseeba Pao Mein..,
Ho Ho..Aanchal Tera Rabba;
Falak Ban Gaya Hai,
Ab Iska Nahi, Koi Ore, Koi Chore

Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Hai Rabba..Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore
Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Hai Rabba..Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore

Dil Kho Gaya, Ho Gaya Kisi Ka..,
Ab Raasta Mil Gaya, Khushi Ka..
Aankhon Mein Hai Khwab Sa, Kisi Ka..
Ab Raasta Mil Gaya, Khushi Ka..
Rishta Naya Rabba, Dil Chu Raha Hai,
Kheeche Mujhe Koi Dore, Teri Ore..

Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Hai Rabba..Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore
Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Hai Rabba..Teri Ore, Teri Ore, Teri Ore

Tum Hamare Nahi To Kya Gam Hai
Hum Tumhare To Hai Yeh Kya Kam Hai
Husn Ki Sohkhia Zara Dekho
Gahe Shoal Hai Gahe Shabnam Hai
Muskura Do Zara Khuda Ke Liye
Sham-e-mhafil Mein Roshni Kam Haai
Ban Gaya Hai Yeh Zindagi Aab To
Tujh Se Badhkar Hume Tera Gam Hai

Yep, thats the “philosophy” i had been living on for the past couple of months tht i had been “absent” frm this blog. Honestly speaking, i had nothing to write abt. I have said watever i wanted to say. i wont say that i am accustomed to a life without HIM, i dont think i wud ever be able to. But i was pleasantly surprised to see ppl actually missing my posts. Thank u Sonia for dropping by my blog. I’m sorry i hadnt been able to come up with anything worthwhile to put on the blog for the past few months. 

I hope everybody who drops by my blog likes the new post. this is one of my fav songs. but then i guess u all know by now that i love jagjit singh. I think he’s the best of all gazal singers. HE’s a singer par excellence. He can touch ur heart in a way no one else can. U can actually relate to the songs he sings. Yeah! I too believe that Jagjit Singh Is the King! heh heh heh

Oh well this is totally uncharacteristic of me! I never Never NEVER listen to such kind of songs! And it was quite by chance that i heard it two days ago. and surprisingly, i just cudnt forget it. Kept humming it in my mind. The lyrics kept haunting me.

 I didnt even knew of this song. I simply hate such talli songs! I didnt even knew wat the title of this song was. or wat movie it was from.  I was searching for the song on youtube. But wasnt able to locate it. Finally i took a chance n typed “Shoot out at Lokhandwala”. Bingo! I found it! A piece of advice. PlS dont go by the video, it will make u think its a talli song. I thought so myself. But wen i heard it unaccompanied by any video i found that i suites us, the broken hearted men/women quite well. This isnt neccessarily a talli  song. It is a song which is tappy yet evokes emotions we can relate to. At least  i did relate to it.

Unke Nashe Mein………
Jalate Rahe, Jalate Rahein…
Unke Nashe Mein Jalate Rahein
Haay Unke Nashe Mein Jalate Raheein
Ladakhadaaye, (ladakhadaaye Kabhi Kabhi Sambhalate Rahein – 4)

Subah Se Lekar Shaam Tak Unaka Jubaan Pe Naam Tha
(subah Se Lekar – 2) Shaam Tak Unaka Jubaan Pe Naam Tha
Woh Jaise Badali Ko Saawan Se – 3
Saawan Ko Badali Se Kaam Tha
Dil Mein Jo Boonde?? Garasate Rahein
Ladakhadaaye, (ladakhadaaye Kabhi Kabhi Sambhalate Rahein – 4)

Mera Unaka Jhagada Tha – 3
Par Unase Main Yeh Keh Na Saka
Mera Unaka Jhagada Tha, Par Unase Main Yeh Keh Na Saka
Meri Khata Thi, Meri Saja Thi – 2
Badal De Tu ????
??? Unaki Ladate Rahein
Ladakhadaaye, (ladakhadaaye Kabhi Kabhi Sambhalate Rahein – 4)

???? Pi Ke
Pine Waale Na ?? Pite Hain
Ho Inaki Khata Nahi Koyi
Yahi Na?? Kasoor Ke Pite Hain
Woh Hum Ek Do Mein Hi Palate Rahein
Ladakhadaaye, (ladakhadaaye Kabhi Kabhi Sambhalate Rahein – 4)

Just some food for thought.

Kabhi Socha Hai Kya, Kabhi Socha Hai Kya Barish Kyun Gaaye,
Kyun Geet Bewaja Hoton Pe Aaye
Kyun Achche Lage Pal Woh Mein Lehre
Kyun Bhat Ke Kadam Ek Pal Na Tehere

Yeh Sab Ishaare Hai, Sang Jo Hamare Hai
Dil Ne Sawaare Hai Pyar Ke Liye

Ooo….Ooo…Oooooo….Ooooo
Ooo….Ooo…Oooooo….Ooooo

Dil Ki Shaaqon Pe, Ddal The Hai Kyun Jhoole
Khusboo Kyun Kisi Ki Saanson Ko Na Bhoole
Hont Thar Tharaathe Kyun Var Na Bathaathe Kyun
Unki Naanukur Bhi Hai Pyar Ke Liye

Kabhi Socha Hai Kya, Kabhi Socha Hai Kya Barish Kyun Gaaye,
Kyun Geet Bewaja Hoton Pe Aaye

[ Pyar Ke Liye Song Lyrics @ http://www.hindilyrix.com ]

Yeh Sab Ishaare Hai, Sang Jo Hamare Hai
Dil Ne Sawaare Hai Pyar Ke Liye

Ooo….Ooo…Oooooo….Ooooo
Ooo….Ooo…Oooooo….Ooooo

Aisa Kyun Lage Hai, Jaise Kuch Adhoora
Woh Jaan Hai Mukammal Kyun Na Lagtha Poora
Aankhon Ki Seethi Mein Khwaabon Ke Moti Hai
Moti Tharasethe Hai Pyar Ke Liye

Kabhi Socha Hai Kya, Kabhi Socha Hai Kya Barish Kyun Gaaye,
Kyun Geet Bewaja Hoton Pe Aaye

Yeh Sab Ishaare Hai, Sang Jo Hamare Hai
Dil Ne Sawaare Hai Pyar Ke Liye

Ooo….Ooo…Oooooo….Ooooo
Ooo….Ooo…Oooooo….Ooooo

I wish someone would read it/ hear this song. Perhaps then something miraculas might happen for. After all its thoda pyaar thoda magic!

I admit this is definitely not my kind of music BUT wen i’m working out i really need something to pep me up, something pumping! So here it goes, my current favourite song “Jaaniye” (the remix)I had no idea which movie it was from. But i kind of liked it wen i heard it wen i was working out. So i came back home n found that it was that very song where neha dhupia’s working out! oh my gosh! I mean every time i saw the video being played i immediately changed the channel n now i am in love with this song. There’s something naughty abt the song which adds a little bit of fun.

I’m ready n looking forward to another day at the gym, jaaniye! BTW, did i mention my gym has some nope sorry too many HOT trainers! I particularly like one but unfortunately he’s always pissed off with me coz i forget the correct procedures of the exercises. So he had to show me everyday. Gawd! He’s smoking HOt! It’s strange for i dont like the guys who r working out though they too r handome n hot. But there’s something abt this trainer that makes ur heart beat faster.

And just to clarify things, I’m NOT in Love! It’s just a little harmless flirting. How do u guys say it? Ah yes, “timepass”.

Har kisi ko nahin milta
yahan pyar zindagi mein
khushnaseeb hai wo jinko hai mili
yeh bahaar zindagi mein

I dont usually wake up with a song in my head but today was different. All i cud hum in my mind was “har kisi ko nahin milta yahan pyaar zindagi mein, khush naseeb hai woh jinko hai mili yeh bahar zindagi mein”. It was so strange, i have never listened to this song attentively to rememeber the lyrics. I was humming the following stanzas too, but believe me i havent listened this song often enough to remember it so well.

But kudos to the lyricist! wat a song! i never understood the song well enough to appreciate it before. Now with personal experience i have understood the true ramifications of the song. ah and so true wen in the end the dialogue somes up, “gaane ke bol humare takdiron mein likhe faisle ban gaye”.

And this is definitely in my case. We didnt end up together. Or should i say u didnt want to end up with me. Anyway, watever the case, u had ur “reasons” but for my part i do feel that-

Hothon se honthh mile na bhale
chaahe mile na baahen baahon se
do dil zinda reh sakte hai
chaahat ki bhari nigaahon se

Har kisi ko nahin milta
yahan pyar zindagi mein
khushnaseeb hai wo jinko hai mili
yeh bahaar zindagi mein

Hothon se honthh mile na bhale
chaahe mile na baahen baahon se
do dil zinda reh sakte hai
chaahat ki bhari nigaahon se

Har kisi ko nahin milta
yahan pyar zindagi mein
khushnaseeb hai wo jinko hai mili
yeh bahaar zindagi mein

Zulfon ke narm andheren hai
jismon ke garm ujaale hai
jeete ji hum ko pyar mila
hum dono kismat waale hai

Har kisi ko nahin milta
yahan pyar zindagi mein
khushnaseeb hai wo jinko hai mili
yeh bahaar zindagi mein

I request all of u who have been given the gift of love, pls dont let it pass u by! it doesnt come ur way often. Sachha pyaar sach mein bahut kam logo ko milta hai. aur jinhe milta hai woh kitne kush naseeb hai woh hum jaise bad naseebo se janiye. So my dera frnds, just remember, har kissi ko nahin milta yahan pyaar zindagi mein, khush naseeb hai woh jinko hai mili yeh bahar zindagi mein”. U donno how fortunate u r to have ur love returned for most of us suffer frm unrequited love. not all of us r blessed by love.